more 1-min nonsense, pg 72

“You listen,” said the Master, “not to discover, but to find something that confirms your own thoughts. You argue not to find the Truth but to vindicate your thinking.”

And he told of a king who, passing through a small town, saw indications of amazing marksmanship everywhere. Trees and barns and fences had circles painted on them with a bullet hole through th eexacty center. He asked to see this unusual marksman. It turned out to be a ten-year-old child.

“This is incredible,” said the king in wonder,. “How in th world do you do it?”

“Easy as pie,” was the answer. “I shoot first and draw the circles later.”

“So you get your conclusions first and build your premises around them later,” said the Master. “Isn’t that the way you manage to hold on to your religion and to your ideology?”

From More One Minute Nonsense by Anthony de Mello.

insomnia struggles I

Going to bed early, and subsequently A-RISE‘ing early, I discovered is excellent for not being in such a hurry to get my daily workout and daily Japanese studying in before getting ready to leave for work, and I have time for “fun/recharging” activities like blogging, and I can clean dishes and such instead of letting it pile up and up until the next weekend!


Let us pray a well-rested mind can remain better connected with God and happiness throughout the day.

workout tryout I

Today I tried a slight alteration to prior home workouts:

  1. One set of an upper-body lift. (or something else that doesn’t hit legs too hard; mine are worked enough 3-4 hours every week!) Warm-up.
  2. Another set of some other upper-body lift etc. Warm-up.
  3. Repeat 1-2, except heavy weight.
  4. Three rotisserie rotations, un-weighted from now on; otherwise far too hard on my elbows which I found out the hard way. And it’s much quicker un-weighted; I feel my core is worked hard enough as-is.
  5. Repeat 3.
  6. Repeat 1-2; cool-down.

Today my “uppahs” were dumbbell flyes and barbell hip thrusts, warm-ups 50-lb & 2×20-lb, heavy 100 & 2×40; cool-downs 70 & 2×30.

Tomorrow I shall switch uppahs with pullups (blue resistance band, my arms am not yet strong enough to do a pullup un-asssisted) and barbell curls.

Edit several hours later: Ow ow ow my back! Looks like jumping straight up the weight for hip thrusts was not a good idea. Maybe I should skip those as I don’t need a bigger bum. It’ll be a while for my back to recover from lifting boxes all stupid a week before this.

someone journals about god

While perusing the local second-hand shop’s book section yet again, I found a neat journal. Not for purchase — I’ve enough notebooks and notepads to write in — but this one contained the prior owner’s writing on these two pages. I found it just interesting enough to share.

Continue reading “someone journals about god”

strength camp: it’s okay to be a “cocky bastard”

I don’t watch fitness “gurus” on YouTube anymore aside from Scooby every now and then (I don’t go on YouTube much at all anymore, actually), but when I did this guy had my attention.

Out of the handful of his videos I’ve watched, I agree with this the most:

There’s pride, but then there’s hiding a candle under a table as mentioned here.

This was mostly before I discovered Alan Watts so I was still in full anti-theist mode so all his “hippy talk” made me roll my eyes. Actually, it was a follower of his on Facebook who introduced me to Watts in the first place, after I asked about meditation. (I was having yet another of my emotional meltdowns and desperate for some way to help myself.)

I gratitude of habocath

I am grateful for bodybuilding.

It was the first mission and passion I followed — aside from Internetting, video-gaming, and pirated TV/movie which was pretty much the only things I had done with my life until that point in between brief instances of creativity like Photoshopping something for an image board or instant messenger. (Remember those?)

I learned much from both successes and failures (moreso the latter) such things as discipline and hard work, and a sense of progress and accomplishment, and how much better it feels to fuel myself with good nutrition.

After five years I finally escaped obesity, the second-most impactful thing for alleviating my lifelong struggle with anxiety and depression. Maybe I shouldn’t say “escape” as I’ll always have to fight to remain not-fat. But I’ve come to enjoy the war and the battles.